Dealing with Stress →
How has everyone been the past few months? For me the stress surrounding my job being taken away, looking for a new job, and getting acquainted with my new job took a bit of a toll. That on top of managing everything else I was doing left me with not a lot of time for what I enjoyed and am passionate about. The good news is that the field is beginning to level out again; I’ve enjoyed the...
Fellow Mental Health [V]Bloggers to Start 2012 →
As a welcome into 2012 I would like to dedicate a post to some other blogs and vlogs out there I have been following for the past 1-2 years. The highlights posts was getting a bit long, so we have a second. I have selected 3 for this particular post and will write about more in the future. Free Your Mind Campaign: http://free-your-mind-campaign.blogspot.com/ The Free Your Mind Campaign was...
2012 Direction and End of 2011 Highlights →
I planned to write this post on New Years Eve or New Years Day but delayed it as I increased my advocacy and activism at the local level due to the November employment events. However, those events have pushed forward some exciting and important plans for the Voices for Awareness campaign in 2012. That said these plans have been in planning for some time and are always a work in progress being...
Stigma in the Workforce →
I am dedicating this blog to awareness about the stigma surrounding mental illness in the professional workforce. Whenever in public I feel this shadow cast over me because of what I go through on a daily basis. It’s bad enough that I have the illness, and the stigma makes it worse. I’ve managed to fill in most of my family now and the reaction has been mostly tears and wishing they...
Recovery and Seeking Help: Part 4 →
Good evening/early morning. Recovery and help was on the upside at least for a couple weeks. My job was going well since I was doing the type of work I enjoy and have a wonderful team that is like another family to me. I don’t notice as much change with the medication now that I have been on it over a month, but I tend to believe the medication is helping. My appetite is more consistently...
Recovery and Seeking Help: Part 3 →
Morning everyone. I hope you all had a good past week and a happy Halloween if it’s celebrated where you are. Happy Holidays to everyone else around the world too; I know there are a few different ones being celebrated right now. Lets do a quick update, there have been some major accomplishments. First off I have been on Paxil for roughly 18 days (not keeping exact count, but the last post...
Recovery and Seeking Help: Part 2 →
The last post I made was in regards to a step backwards progress-wise and my upcoming doctor appointment to try and figure out what is going on with me. That appointment was last Friday and I would like to reflect back on it, the outcome, and where I think I am headed in the future from it. The core issues that I spoke with the doctor about - Other than essential tasks to survive, such as; going...
Recovery and Seeking Help: Part 1 →
Fall is among us, the leaves are beginning to fall, and the temperature is beginning to drop outside. September was usually a month I could turn off the A/C and open up the windows. Place some fans and was good to go. Nice and relaxing to come home and just relax in a cool environment. This is also the worst time of year for me typically. Thoughts of what happened 4 years ago revisit my mind,...
The Need to Be Yourself →
Greetings everyone. Just Saturday was TWLOHA (To Write Love On Her Arms) Awareness Day (link at bottom of post). If you didn’t get to do anything for it it’s not too late. Every day is awareness and support day. Before I get on to the main topic I have planned for this post I thought it would be worth mentioning I finally came out to some family about this blog. It is my hope that...
Addiction and Destructive Behavior →
Good morning everyone. Hopefully it hasn’t been as hectic for everyone as it has me the past couple weeks. I’ve traveled, met some new people in the online realm of gaming, watched TV, and picked up new music. Regardless I’m managing to get on top of everything and want to provide another post. In my struggle to meet new people there is one key factor that gets in the way the...
I should have a new post for everyone tonight or tomorrow. I had to go out of town and apologize for the disappearance. Trying to catch up with everything right now. :)
Dawson McAllister | Help and Inspiration #1 →
Before I get involved with the upcoming busy week I thought it would be helpful to share an inspirational and helpful person I pay attention to on a weekly basis if not a few times a week. I would like to try and highlight different people on occasion to provide everyone with more tools to get through what they are dealing with. Whether it be passively watching a vlog, listening or calling into...
Bullying and the Affects on Mental Health →
A subject that hits home very much and I think is important to cover: Bullying. This can take many shapes and forms and be encountered anywhere. I experienced it in grade school, it has happened to me in the work place, and the place I expected it least till the last 4 years, online, the world wide web. The following post will go through what I deal with today and work back to roughly 1995, the...
New Post Soon
Hello everyone. There will be a new post coming within the next 24 hours. The topic this week is on bullying and its relation to mental health. The post has been written and just needs to be read over and revised. For now, all have a good night.
Update: Moving, Jobs, and Social Interaction →
I have now officially been in my new home for a month and the new job for about three weeks. I have to say it’s half and half when it comes to saying everything is going well. At the new job I am integrating with the new co-workers fairly well. I am to a point where I can get something accomplished and bring up my thoughts to the people there. That happened fairly quick though and is a...
The Mental Health System in the U.S. →
Hope everyone is well on this hot summer day, or cold winter day, depending where in the world you are. Over the years I have lived in places with very low grades when it comes to the mental health system in the United States. I have to say the grades are pretty much dead on too, the experiences I’ve had are awful. The U.S. in general greatly suffers when it comes to good mental health...
Reflection on College Living →
I’ve seen a couple videos from regular vlogs I keep up on weekly in regards to mental health, this time on college living. One from The Emmy R and the other From Miss Lizenka. I’ll link them before moving on with my own experiences so you can get their perspectives as well. They both have good information. I would like to add to their input based on reflection having graduated a...
Personal Entry |2 - The Moving Experience, Part 1 →
Yesterday I finally got internet connectivity again and am able to continue on with my posts. The last week though has been an interesting experience though looking at the different affects its had on me. I think one person at work has begun to sense a little that there is a bit more behind my face than what I really show on a daily basis. I haven’t outright spoken about the difference...
Quick Update - Moving
Here is a quick update. I have been busy with a move, packing, address management, all those wonderful parts involved with moving. I don’t expect to have much time on my hands again till later next week. Between working a fulltime job and going through every little thing I own I have been pretty exhausted most of the time. I will still be around throughout the duration, just in a limited...
Role of Confidence / Workplace Stress Factors →
In no way has any scientific research been done for this post, just personal observation of myself. This post is a bit longer than most of my others, so grab a drink, queue up the music, and tune in! For me confidence is something that comes and goes. Most of the time in social situation it runs away and leaves me behind. There are some observations I have made though, especially in regards to my...
Personal Entry |1 - BPD, Bipolar, Depression →
I have been on a mission ever since I was diagnosed with depression roughly six years ago to understand what is wrong with me and what I can do to get better. There is a part of me that doesn’t necessarily want to get better and is afraid of what I will become when I am not quite me anymore. It’s misery though always having issues with my mood and being so isolated that I don’t...
Disconnected and Defiant →
I am not entirely sure what happened to me over the past week. The week started with my mind taking over and telling me who I was. My mind told me I am who I was 6 years ago and started steering me right back down the path to some of the darkest days of my life. Any type of distraction I had in my book wasn’t working. I had no support network of people I could talk to. My mind took a hold of...
Reflections on Anxiety →
This is going to be more of a reflection on the past and what I think I’ve learned from it. So read on if you care to and see if you notice the same and if there is anything we can learn; I think we can. One of the conclusions I am coming to is that anxiety may be one of the larger issues I’ve dealt with over the past year (that’s what I think is going on at least since I...
Question in Regards to Repression →
I haven’t posted in a little over a week, but I have been busy with my job and life in general. I have been thinking about something lately. Perhaps this is one piece of the puzzle I need to figure out to finally recover completely. When we “distract” ourselves and do other things instead of the negative behaviors are we really fixing the problem? All we are saying is okay I am...
Counseling/Therapy Response to TheEmmyR →
This is a response to a video by TheEmmyR on YouTube. I am making the response on the blog so I am not restricted by the short character message length of YouTube comments. Original video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1O967_S3FzE&feature=feedu The original question was: “What should the goal of counseling be? To get rid of the urges of self harm? Or to accept the urges and learn...
In context of my career I wrote this post last night, but because I was trying to get to sleep decided just to write it and not actually post it since I couldn’t look the post over for revision. Last night’s part is below the line. I am a perfectionist. This post has to do with my life long dreams, career, and what I have gotten myself into with where I want to end up. Basically I had...
A Little About Myself, Part 1 →
I don’t know how many parts there will be to this or where to really start, but here is some information about myself. About 6 years ago I was diagnosed with major depression, it was the summer after my freshman year of college. The year prior to my senior year in high school I moved and was required to go to a new school, having to leave all my friends behind without any goodbyes. -Read...
SelfHarmSupport Weekly Question - Showing Your... →
Rather than starting out with a personal post since I don’t have much time at the moment I am going to do one in relation to a excellent resource I found a few weeks ago. SelfHarmSupport is a Youtube channel combining a variety of people and their thoughts on weekly questions posted by the viewers. I find this to be extremely helpful because it’s not textbook information and opinion,...
Speaking Out about Mental Health →
What the Blog is About: I have created this blog to spread awareness about mental health issues and self harm. This is a place to share my own thoughts and struggles. I hope that it will also provide another place where people can find more tips and support towards recovery. Self harm does not have to be the only subject and just happens to be what I’ve struggled with. I will make personal...